i'm kinda lost and trying to find my way back home. hehehe. LEARNING TO LIVE (Dream Theatre) There was no time for pain No energy for anger The sightlessness of hatred slips away Walking through winter streets alone She stops and takes a breath With confidence and self control I look at the world and see no understanding I'm waiting to find some sense of strength I'm begging you from the bottom of my heart to show some understanding I need to live life Like some people never will So find me kindness Find me beauty Find me truth When temptation brings me to my knees And I lay here drained on strength Show me kindness Show me beauty Show me truth The ways that your heart sounds makes all the difference It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel The way that your heart beats makes all the difference In learning to live Here before me is my soul I'm learning to live I won't give up Till I've no more to give Listening to the city Whispering its violence I set out watching from above The 90's bring new questions New solutions to be found I fell in love to be let down Once again we dance in the crowd At times a step away From a common fear that's all spread out It won't listen to what you say Once you're touched and you stand alone To face the bitter fight Once I reached for love And now I reach for life Another chance to lift my life Free the sensation in my heart To ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons It brings inner peace within my mind, As I'm lifted from where I've split my life I hear an innocent voice I hear kindness, beauty and truth The way your heart sounds makes all the difference It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel The way your heart beats makes all the difference In learning to live Spread before you is your soul So forever hold the dreams within our hearts Through nature's inflexible grace

MUSIKA (it expresses what w0rds can't d0 alone), dancing, is-ports, sari-saring pagkain, EARRINGS (m0st fav0rite vanity), b0oks that are w0rth your time, mga pasaway na kaibigan *COITUS CLAN!!*, METAPHORS, sadism, kaweirduhan, nature (oh green! how i love thee!), ogle at blank spaces, mg-isip hanggang mapraning (damn exhausting), madness, mindlessness, asteeg daggers, dark-colored gems, philosophy and higher learning, beauty, suffering, asian and european graphic and decorative arts, abstracts, convictions, human thinking and the way the human mind w0rks, PAGLUBOG NG ARAW, pagsikat ulit, PAGKADAPA, pagbang0n, at paghiL0m ng mga sugat, science in general, genetic epistasis, pink with black, memories, passion, dreaminess and surrealism, walang katapusang mga katanungan, supressed and repressed em0tions, confusi0n, LOVE, LIFE, complexities, PARADOXES, ubermensch-ness,interesting people, intellectual conversations

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paulo c0elho--veronika decides to die, the alchemist, by the river piedra i sat down and wept, the fifth mountain, eleven minutes; joshua harris; memoirs of a geisha; the celestine prophecy; if love is a game, these are the rules; a s0ng for caitlin; hard to resist; the da vinci code; shanghai baby

_"if you give the w0rld the best you've g0t, you'll get kicked on the teeth.
give the w0rld the best you've got anyway..."

_I AM NOT MADE TO BE THE ADMIRATION OF ALL...BUT FOR THE HAPPINESS OF ONE..
_"d0 not strive to be the best am0ng the rest.. just be the best of who you are" (i g0t from a high school friend)

_"Everything hath its reason for being thou needest only distinguish what is temporary from what is lasting." -the fifth mountain